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Thursday, January 18, 2007
I'm afraid I can't knit right now.
My boyfriend of six years broke up with me and I am unable to continue knitting as a result. It's odd - for him knitting has brought great comfort during a difficult time. But for me, it has given me too many memories and difficult times to face.
A tangle in a ball reminds me of how he'd patiently sit and unwind the ferocious knots that somehow find their way into my knitting, all the time cheekily berating me for making such a mess. I'd like to sit quietly and knit at the end of my sofa, but that reminds me of all the times I did that to escape the problems we had.
My Central Park Hoodie was supposed to keep me warm on our Valentine's Day trip to New York City, but I just cannot bring myself to finish it now. Besides, I am crap at picking up stitches for edgings - that was his job. It just needs finishing, but I can't do it.
I read such inspirational stories about how people knit through the greatest adversities. But I just can't. I don't seem to even be able to pick up the needles. It's hard to inspire yourself to make something beautiful if you feel so ugly inside.
So expect this place to be quiet for a little while.
4:46 PM ]